sabah. day 1

after thinking about all d stuff n changing d location from China cz of d influenza thingy to lots of other places, we decided to go to d land below d wind. i guess Sabah really is IN right now, cz everyone talked about Sabah these days, even d newspapers. not that newspapers could talk :P

d original plan was to go there on Friday n come back on Sunday cz my youngest bro had some motivational camp until Thursday. but, we decided to make him come home a bit early. so we took an evening flight on Thursday and arrived there around 10pm, cz d flight was delayed for a while. smpai je mmg da pnat n starving, even tho da mkn during d flight :P lpas check in terus g makan kat kedai mamak near d hotel, nasib rasa sama mcm kat cni..if not mmg x lalu la nk mkn. d hotel was very nice, tp ade technical prob lak with d room..lgsg xley tido hampeh tul. ley pulak xde bilik lain yg vacant. tpakse la tahan. d next morning terus check out.

pagi tu while waiting for our rented car, we went for a walk nearby. rupenye dkat gler ngan waterfront n d markets. tp kat sane matahari naik cpat sket from here, baru pkul brape je da panas cm tengahari. tgk2 stuff kat Pasar Kraftangan KK, mula2 mmg x interested pun. cz we didn't know that is d Filipino market, apparently they changed d name already. konon2 x heran la kat ctu, sbb nk g Filipino market kn..haha

then we started off to Penampang, cz it's Friday n there's Tamu on Thursdays n Fridays kat sane. da jln punye jauh smpai da xde signboard lagi br tanye org, rupenyer da tlepas, kne la backtrack balik. Tamu tu kat tengah2 pekan Dongongan..da la mula2 smpai kat tmpat yg slh jugak. i said to my mom, "xkn la sket sgt gerai2 ni ley jadi Tamu lak?" pastu tanye those ppl, br taw kat another area yg x jauh from there. mcm2 :P

tp i was kinda let down when i saw it, mmg la besar n bnyk brg. but d scene planted in my head was really different from what i saw. da slalu pk Tamu tu mcm gmbr dlm buku teks skolah dlu2..old ladies yg duduk atas mats or whatever, jual brg yg letak on d ground..smethg like that la kan,hehe. yg ni da moden la, like d usual pasar tani or whatever u call it mcm kat semenanjung ni jugak. n they sell baju bundle, bags n d usual..same je. makanan pun lebey kurang sama kot, kueh2 diorg besar sket..50cents per piece. tasted their apam balik, no good. they're more of d homecooked food kinda ppl kot, cz fresh stuff lagi bnyk. we didn't buy much food from vendors, cz xtaw yg mana satu halal n which aren't..except for those wearing tudung la kn. so lunch was KFC je..so not adventurous..

lpas tu jln2 sket, went to Lok Kawi..patah balik, then lepak kat Tg.Aru jap.

then petang tu ktorg g d museum pulak. normal historical stuff, some interesting jugak even tho i'm very not into history. but i really prefer these stuff kat luar, cz ley amek gmbr..kat dlm xley :P

dinner was awesome..we went to Sinsuran, makan place beside d Pasar Kraftangan KK a.k.a Filipino Market. it was smokey ;) best sgt..cz kat cni d attraction was d seafood. ikan bakar, sotong bakar, udang bakar..n ade jugak stuff that i don't really recognize. i baca ade yg tulis umai, but since i don't know how my tastebuds n stomach wud react..better not..hehe. ade other types of food like fried mee n fried rice n stuff..tp nk watpe mkn tu kn. d seafood was really cheap..my bro kurang ske, cz he said same je..sume bakar. he preferred to have our kind of ikan bakar place yg ade sweet sour fish n stuff, but i ske je Sinsuran's seafood, they're mostly larger in size some more..n i had ABC too. yg peliknye, kat cni ABC die ade masukkn macaroni skali..their recipe kot, cz every stall pun ade macaroni. i x mkn la macaroni dlm ABC tu, cz i don't eat supposedly savoury stuff with sweets..mmg la macaroni x rasa ape2 kn, but mmg xley la..

i love u, but..

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year

The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A few years later

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!

'I wish I did too...' I thought to my self, and I cried.

i've heard n read this story hundreds of times already..n i thot i'd share it now. what can we have other than regret when it's obviously far too late for us, like that guy..

so fast?

a friend of mine told me some great news..she's planning to get married with her boyfriend and move to another country for a few years while waiting for her future-hubby to finish his Masters degree. they're still thinking about it, coz they haven't really got the green light from both families. but she told me she need to get married fast before she's notified of her posting. that means it would most likely be before the end of this year. woah! that's blindingly fast..maybe coz she never intended to get married this soon. she always said they would take a few years before making plans on marriage, before this.

see, i already know my friends are gonna get married before i do.

zara, my bestie told me..

'if u love somebody, let them go.

for if they return, they were always yours, and if they don't, they never were'

-kahlil gibran-

mat saleh ke??

this is about some customers i served a few days before..

they wanted to look like they're some important people, by this i mean they speak like we're not at par with them. but they made some mistake, and i had to control myself from laughing out loud in front of them. there was this two middle-aged ladies, (who would be angry if i ever call them makcik ;P) and they were talking about their family i guess. suddenly one of them started to brag about her son, saying something about him..and then she said, she looked up the dictionary and found out that the word "thought" can be shortened to "tho". she even emphasized the word, and spelled it for the other..T.H.O.U.G.H.T

i want to kill myself right in front of them, maybe after i laugh so hard until tears come streaming down my cheeks ;P

i know she would have mistaken the words, just like when we first learnt to differentiate those two at school years ago. but please, there's no need to talk like you know everything in front of us. i felt like telling them the right word, but then maybe they would think of me as a rude girl to interrupt their conversation. so i let it go..

another colleague of mine pun had a similar situation, when a family spoke in english in front of her..like they have some standard that we don't have. ckp melayu sudah, nama pun kat kampung..no need to show ur mat saleh side here..