Sunday, August 30, 2009

being free

it's gonna be 52 years after we gained our independence as a country, a multiracial country as a whole.
but thinking of how we, Malaysians act and think of others..our own countrymen. i'd say we've a long way to go to make up for the 52 years of independence. as a country, we haven't reach a level that's substantial to make us really unite. even tho we say we're proud of ourselves to have come such a long way, we're still making HUGE mistakes..of blaming others and closing one eye on our own fault.
i'm gonna be 23 in a few months, and that's only half the years of our independence. i'm totally thankful coz i don't have to go thru the hardship of getting the independence, or even living under the British officers, the Dutch..or those terrible time under the Japanese occupation. that's the reason we learn history in learn from the past, their mistakes, their sufferings and their courage. but now, i don't think the new generation get what was meant by those stories we learnt about. that's why i don't agree with the edu system, it produces ppl who are studying hard just to pass the exams..and not to learn the real thing. thus, the proud feeling of being a true Malaysian subsides and dims with time. it adds with the lack of interest of the younger generation in learning the history subject in school. i hope the ministry would never consider making history into one of the elective subjects in the future, like what happened to Geography. there are a lot of ppl who don't know where the states are situated in our own country, let alone knowing about the other countries.
we're free in the sense that we're free to study, to voice our own thoughts, to build our live anywhere we want, to go anywhere. then one asked, are we really free that we can taunt other races? are we really free that we throw accusations to others, blaming them for everything..even if it's not totally their fault? are we really free?
these recent years, i've been assessing the situation for myself..since i turned to be in another bracket of age, i think. i couldn't really recall if i've started this 'assessment' before that. some ppl tend to generalise everyone into a group and speak of them as one. that's barely tolerable. they would say "that race is downright disgusting, they do this and do that to us", when actually it's just some ppl they know. and i don't think they've met everyone born in that race, to enable them to say all would have the same quality. i know there would be a whole lot more ppl better than this one particular person who's badmouthing the other race.
when that happens around me, which i'm sad to reveal..had happened one too many times when i was even right there. my parents have interracial marriage..and i'm deeply affected when i encounter racial issues. i would say i'm blessed to be born half-half..coz i wouldn't know if i could be this sensitive to this issue if i was born 'full-blooded'.
let me quote this one particular ads, about the ABC being Malaysians' favourite. ABC as all of us know, needs a lot of ingredients to make it make it truly ABC. the red beans, the nuts, the corn, the syrup, the condensed milk, the attap chee..among all. the same goes for Malaysia, we would never be Malaysia if there's no Malay, Chinese, Indian, Bidayuh, Kadazan and others.
owh, and please add up the feel of Merdeka day. i don't think this year's celebration gonna be something memorable..coz i still don't get the Independence Day vibe, even tho it's less than a day now..
hopefully we can think about this, and change our attitude as a that the situation can also change for the better and benefit us all


Saturday, August 29, 2009

a short while

my mom cooked some food for my sis since she couldn't come home. well, at least until right before raya. pity her, this is actually her first Ramadhan without us. so this morning we went up north to KL. we spent only a few minutes together, and the rest of the time..what else? shopping - picking out clothes and queuing up to try them on, queuing up to pay..seems that queuing up took most of our time there.
here are some of the pics that i took in the car..

i still love this song even tho it keeps repeating the 'taking back my love' part..and it's been a while since it came out..

p/s: i was sleeping and dreaming about a really HOT guy this morning when my sister called me and woke me up..haisshhh..hoping that i can get the same dream tonight :p yg sedeynye da x ingt how he looks like..

Sunday, August 9, 2009

another trait i hate

imagine being in a company of someone who brags constantly..would u be happy to listen while that same person pours out whatever's in his/her own heart? and that would of course means not once or twice, but the whole day if u're unlucky enough to wrongly chose to be in his/her company.
i had to unwillingly paste a smile on my own face and pretend to be delighted and interested in whatever the person's talking about..mostly of other ppl. let them do or in this case, buy whatever they want..who do u think u are? someone big and rich enough with money to outdo everyone else u encounter in ur life?
and u don't even know most of the brands of goods..when u thot urself of being a connoisseur of big-named brands like L***s ***tton. i think the truth is, he/she only recognizes that ONE brand only. when i mentioned about Christian Louboutin, nothing of recognition flickered in his/her eyes much of being a connoisseur. blerrggghhh!
that person would squint his/her eyes and point to whatever kind of bags that bore that particular logo of brand and ask bluntly, "is that the original thing?"
it's not like he/she owns anything from the brand..tolong la biar je org nk beli kat pasar mlm ke, wherever they bought that thing..original or not. it's not like in this country xde copied goods at all.
even if it's his/her own friend, he/she would be like piranha looking out for blood..or meat to chew on. if the friend said they bought this stuff or that stuff somewhere, but then the one who brags happened to come across a similar stuff somewhere else, like kedai biase with no brands..he/she would be in joy and said the friend's secret is out of the box already. what the?
and he/she even had the nerve to ask how much one spend for festive season..and then bragged that he/she would spend a few times more that everyone else.
i felt like strangling that person already. ala stakat nk blagak tnjuk kaya, i'm not impressed AT ALL. tolong la grow up. after i spent the day feeling like it's wasted for being in the wrong company, i felt like banging my head as hard as i could. how could i forget about the 'impressive' quality that particular person possess? i've known about it before, and i forgot..nice memory i've got, huh.
that totally dampen my day, and i hope i would remember next time not to go anywhere with that person..and of course not to buy anything in his/her presence.